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I am so happy today I can’t even speak. It overwhelms me, takes hold of me, makes me shudder and shiver. It makes me giggle and wave hello to the leaves dancing on the pavement. It makes me smile sleepily, and day dream. Happiness makes me love infinitely, and confidently.

Today I took a moment to pause and look over all of my accomplishments over the last half a year. I’ve had to overcome so much, and not just from the outside but from within. I’m a work in progress, like everyone else. But I can’t help but be overjoyed by life.

I’m grateful for life, and struggle.

I find it oddly beautiful that in order to make my dreams come true I had to pass through a series of nightmares. Events I used to lay awake in bed worrying about like freezing, being hungry, poor, homeless, losing my family, etc… 

I’ve gone through, and come out alive.

Despite these struggles I still think I’m the luckiest woman alive. Who else gets to live the dream they had as a child? Who else has had every wish they’ve ever wanted come true? And how many people in the world out there are doing exactly what they want to do right now?

How many people have you, looneyboy?

Nina Simone says it best when I can’t quite find the words for my happiness:

“It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, it’s a new life for me…and I’m feeling good.

And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me”

For the first time, I’m in love with life LIVING.

Whenever we roam be beside me

when you’re allone when you go

When no one comes along. And for all we

Wander, Encounter and Open

Allways curl up with me.

Give me Pain, Past, and Fury.

Betray my way.

I won’t abandon you.

-Mark Z. Danielewski

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