Weird to have a date as an entry title. But there you are. The most important day of my life. Perhaps the first day I ever truly lived. Ah, don’t frown. I know I’ve had 20 years of wasted time before that.
Days spent playing video games, going to work, surfing the internet, jacking off, eating, jacking off some more and then sleeping for a good 12 hours. Don’t get me wrong, it was fun while it lasted, but it had to end sooner or later. Dear God, I’m glad it did.
July 14th was the day I met You so I’ll never forget it. I had been waiting all day to meet You.
Five days before we met your arrival had been foretold with my new tarot deck. I had asked if I would ever meet my soulmate. It sounded cheesy to me, but a part of me was dying to know. I asked very specific questions like a time frame, and the deck told me five days with the five of wands card.
Five days later (on July 14th), I met you, King Crab. Eerie, eh?
July 14th was my sisters grad party. I had run away that day, in order to escape my embarassment at still not knowing what to do with my life. I knew every relative there would ask me what my plans were. I had no answers.
The day before my mother and I had just fought over the amount of work I do at the house. I remember everything about that time vivdly. The day passed without any sign of you.
And then finally at night I got a chance to meet you. Online the first time, instant messaging each other back and forth. Playfully. You flirting, me shy. Afraid. I knew who you were the moment we started talking. I’d been expecting you.
My blood pounded through my veins and my stomach flew into my throat and I choked. Warm energy spread through out my body. My mind filled with thoughts of you.
I talked to you for hours until 4AM. Never needing sleep, never wanting it, never feeling bored, only wanting more of you.
I knew I loved you that night.
And that’s why I’ll never forget July 14th. On that day I was reborn: my second birthday. Our birthday. I was baptized in the garden of eros. The day I discovered my passion, my dream, and realized that the Kingdom of Heaven was near.
